“The best thing you can do for someone is to just exist-to be there when they suddenly realized that they need you right then.”

It was raining really hard when I got this sms. I got caught up and I felt this weird feeling towards this message. To ease out my mind, I replied to him and said, “hey. Musta? Any problems? ”

Until now, I didn’t get any response from him. During my free time, I keep on reading and pondering what this person try to convey with his message. This is actually what I hate most-sending a ‘patama’ message to your receiver.

I know I have been blogging about him since 2007. We’ve gone through a lot of things yet, we can’t figure out what we’re doing wrong. Years had passed yet, he told me that he can’t get over ‘us’ even though he’s currently in a relationship. There were also times that I would feel the same, tell him about it and he will do the same thing as I did before. Funny thing here is we keep on denying each other whenever we were given that chance.

He was the only guy that my dad trusted a lot. I knew everything about him-so was he. He just acts naturally ‘him’ whenever he was with me.

I keep on thinking why he did that on his birthday last year. For some reason, I didn’t get angry at him. Although, initially-yes. Maybe if we were in good circumstances back then, I guess I might say ‘yes’ when he asked me to settle down with him.

Maybe I get used to him (as a friend) being casual to me after our break up. We decided to be friends and we still see each other every now and then. I’m not saying that I love him today. I wanted to know the reason behind his sms. After I declined him, he suddenly became aloof. He didn’t greet me on my birthday today nor talking to me when he’s online.

He just keep on sending those ‘patama’ messages-and I hate it!

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