“It’s personal, myself and I… We’ve got straightening out to do.”

I got today a news today and I felt really discouraged. I’ve been trying my best yet, I think it’s not enough. All throughout my lunch today, I was actually weighing things and it’s hard.. to perk myself up.

I’m a pessimist. I never stop thinking, wishing and expecting negative things-at it’s worst.

For now, I wanted to be alone. I decided to be at home too early before my shift. My shift ends at 6:30  I want to clear my mind and feel a bit okay.

I appreciate for those people who are being optimistic for me. They keep on telling me to be positive and whatever bothers me-it’s all in my head.

“Nicey, huwag mong sayangin!”

The words that stuck in my head when I had a one and one coaching with my ASG, Kaye. I’m trying to but I don’t have the control over it.

It saddens me because I’ll be leaving my teammates that I learned to enjoy their company.

Honestly? It sucks-big time!

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