While I was browsing the thread in facebook, I saw a video of Silent Sanctuary. Actually, I have been listening to their album and the song “Hiling” really got my attention.

I drooled over the song and I admit that there were times that I played it in loop mode for almost a week. The song’s really sad-for real! I don’t know if this is applicable to everyone who went through the process of breaking up. I mean, do they also think of their ex once in a while? Feeling sorry for all the mistakes they did?

My sister was beside me while watching the video. I can’t react or make any remarks about the video. I really can’t-which led me in posting another one here in my blog.

It’s pretty ironic when you almost gave up everything for that someone yet in the end, they threw you away either with someone else or reaching their selfish dreams.

Honestly? It’s like someone or a thing pinch in my heart for a couple of seconds. I thought about Joey-yes, my dear friend… you’re the first person that came out of my mind. I was like, where the hell are you??? I need you!

Whew. It’s pretty hard to broadcast whatever happened to me on the month of May last year. I’m being haunted by it actually. Sometimes, I wonder how my life would be if it didn’t happen? I mean, the rainy part. Should I be blamed for being irresponsible or some sort? No. I was stressed out and the heavy downpour of rain decided it all-blood were everywhere. I was alone-was he there when I needed him? NO. He was busy and sharing his bed with another woman.

I even asked him if I could see him but to my dismay he denied my request.

Since then, my life changed and I felt the whole world crumbled on me. I can still see him in my dreams, crying for my help-wanting me to comfort him. It keeps on haunting me every now and then.

But where is he? Did he truly forgotten me-us?

Such an asshole who deserves a miserable life.

I doubt if he somehow feels the same way as I did before-he’s happy. Why should he care? Does he even remember my name? How about his name? Gad Nicey.

Well, I’m through with you anyways. I just wanted to spill it out and I know you won’t mind. You didn’t care about me anyways. Why bother?

Just listen to the song or you might want to view the video as well:

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