“Buti pa tong si Nicey walang ka probleproblema sa love life..”

I just smiled and simply looked away the moment I heard this from my friend during our first break in product training. Words are like knife that can cut through you within your veins. The only difference between them is that no one knows that you’re bleeding inside once it hit you.

I saw a  group of guys walking towards me. A dirty white shirt that has leaves of trees design looks pretty familiar and when they got nearer, it was him. I tried to catch his attention by looking in his eyes but he completely ignored me and walked away.

It was my dream last night.

What really sucks is that even in dreams, he’s aloof and never really cared about what I feel inside. I’m not wishing the other way around, excuse me!

I’m no longer hurting nor bitter with what had happened in the past. I’ve finally managed to escape from his circle and let go all of our memories that made me miserable for a certain period of time.

The scars I’m seeing right now will always remind me how painful it is to be in love. I was deceived and betrayed by the least person whom I expected will never do it but I was wrong.

Since then I decided to push away everything and be silent for a while as I try to mend my devastated life.

So if you think I’m okay, think again.

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