Alone in the dark, crawling into a serene crypt

Where promises and lies are kept

Feeling abandoned screaming for help

Bleeding inside ‘coz the pain’s too deep.

Nowhere to go, my emotions on chaos

As I sere on a battle I lost

Can’t believe you let me be on my own

Struggling in a node, he had done.

My eyes never get tired of crying

Through all the sufferings, I felt like dying.

These intensity had shattered my life

Like a hard gnaw of a sharp knife.

I thought you were the one who’ll protect

To guide me as I walk upon the light

But you had raped my trust,

A maniac craving for lust!

You are the reason why I feel so broken

Wishing I was numb on this pain

I damn you for making my life miserable

My dreams had disappeared and hope’s on brittle.

How can I go on?

People are too busy on the lives of their own.

Nicey’s life will never be the same

Forever I’ll be on shame.

-April 10, 2006

September 2005, something happened that changed my life completely. There’s no way for me but to write my deep angst through a poem. It’s full of angst, I know. Every time I hear the song of Greenday, I can’t help but remember how bitter the real world is.

It’s been years and finally I was able to break free from the chains he had done. I learned a lot… the hard way.

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